Workout Motivation

With this new lifestyle , came some much needed changes. I usually workout 5-6 times a week. It was a hard routine to get into. I went from basically being sedentary to really working out, pushing myself. At first, people told me it was too much and in retrospect it probably was. But I’ve kinda found my groove now. And even though there were days my body was saying enough or it was too much, I didn’t want to give myself an excuse, an out. That’s what got me to be this overweight.  Denial, excuses, and always telling myself I couldn’t do it. So I knew I needed to push myself and not give myself a way out. For the first time, I am holding myself accountable.
     I do turbokick 3 times a week and it’s really the workout that has showed me I can do more than I ever thought. The other 2 or 3 days, I do workouts at home. It may be dvds, wii workouts, kettlebells, etc. Do not be scared to try new things, to push yourself.
     Some of my friends told me about a new turbokick class that was starting in town, and encouraged me to try it with them. I had just started on my weightloss journey. I dismissed the idea right away, but it kept coming to my mind to just try it.  So I messaged the instructor on Facebook. We live in a very small town, but I did not know this girl. But I kinda just laid it all out there. I told her I was severely overweight, just started exercising, and I really wanted to know if I could do this class. She reassured me that I could. It was for all fitness levels, there were modifications to everything, and for me to work on my level. That conversation started a friendship. I love Brooke. She’s a friend to me now, motivates me, pushes me, but never singles me out for not being able to do something.
     So I went to that first class and loved it. Yes I have to modify lots of stuff, but I am there 3 days a week working my butt off.
     People want to know how to stay motivated to workout. Yes there are days I would rather sit around and read and eat all day. But those days are fewer and far between. I have more energy to do things and want to do things. I do workouts at home I like to do and I am always changing it up. The kettlebell routines I do, I googled and watched utube videos and made up my own routine. Knowledge is power. I am always adding to it, tweaking it, working on form etc.
     And it’s a mind thing really. Brooke tells us that all the time, but I never understood until recently. These ladies in my turbokick class have become friends and we motivate each other. I get messages now wanting to know how much weight I have lost and how do I keep going. Most messages say things like, “when I am feeling tired and want to quit, I look up and you’re still going. Or when I have to take a break, I look around and you have never stopped.” Those messages are my fuel. It’s a mind thing. I knew coming into this class,  I would be the biggest person. But I didn’t want to be the biggest person that had to keep stopping, that couldn’t keep up. So I push myself every class. When I see someone that stops to take a water break or whatever, and they are smaller than me, it’s my push to keep going. In my mind, I outlasted at least one person. Now don’t get me wrong.  These ladies all work their butts off. But it’s a mind thing with me. I do have to stop occasionally but I don’t walk off to get water. I may have to stop a movement just to catch my breath or literally so I don’t pass out. (I have felt like that a couple of times. I don’t say anything, I just regroup and keep going.) But when I leave, I know I pushed myself and I didn’t stop just because it got hard.
     Not gonna lie, my body hurts alot. My knees are in constant pain and my body hurts just to move sometimes. And there are days my body tells me I need to rest and I listen to it. But I know these aches and pains are also helping me toward a goal. My knees do hurt but I have noticed my squats are lower. I am tired in turbokick class but I am noticing new things that I can do well or don’t have to modify as much. This is progress.
     You each have to find that thing within you that motivates you to do it. Whether it’s a before pic, whether it’s the feeling after a workout, whether it’s the motivation to not be the fat girl anymore, you have to find it. You have to make the choices, make it a habit and make the changes. You have to want it. And the results will be the fuel you need to keep going. 🙂

Weekends are part of the week too

Mondays are the hardest for me. It’s confession time. Weekends have gone from a “cheat” meal to a “cheat” day, to now “cheat” weekends. I don’t really like the word cheat but lately that’s what it feels like.  I am a firm believer in moderation and not obsessing over food, calories and such. But I believe that can only happen when you can control it. Let’s be honest. If you buy a pack of cookies on your cheat day and you eat the entire pack, that is not moderation. And no, I haven’t eaten an entire pack of cookies but on weekends I tend to be more relaxed and feel myself eating more and more. Not for a meal or a day but an entire weekend.  So then Mondays roll around. And I feel like poo. I’m sluggish, unmotivated, tired, have a yucky tummy etc. I would compare it to someone going on an alcohol bender the entire weekend. Mondays they are tired, have a headache, food seems yucky, etc. I hide things I am eating, I sneak food or I brush it off because it’s my cheat day.
     This is not ok. I am self sabotaging myself. And I work my butt off all week to see a loss on the scale. If I just applied everything to the weekend too, the number would be flying down. I have said it before but I am a food addict. It’s not just that food is good to me. I think about it all the time. Things that shouldn’t, revolve around food. I can stuff my face on a binge and never really taste the food. I can eat food and never remember it.  The difference between an alcoholic and a food addict is you don’t have to have alcohol to live. You can go the rest of your life and not step into a bar or a liquor store. But you have to have food to live. So changing my relationship with food is a big part of this process. And always being honest with myself and all of you.
     So those are the things I am currently working on. I am 29 pounds down so far. But I want more. I deserve more. I can do more. People think it’s as simple as eating right and exercising. And yes for some it is as cut and dry as that. But not for me. It’s as much mental as anything. It’s as much as figuring out what works for me, what my internal dialog is and changing my perception of me. I still love food and it’s fun finding things that are healthy but still taste good and look good. Things that satisfy me, get me full and get me excited about eating it.
     And I’ve already told y’all about workouts.  I love turbokick. I love Biggest Loser dvds. I like Zumba for the wii. I like kettlebells. No one wants to spend the rest of their lives doing workouts they hate.  Get moving, find food you like that is healthy,  workouts you love and do it. No one can do this for me. No one can make me do it or want to do it. I have to do it. The way I am doing it is not the fastest way but it’s the way I can live day to day with. It’s now my lifestyle that I am still working to improve. I’m planning another blog later this week about my mindset on workouts and things, my motivation, etc.